My way, my life

Promise

2009-12-23T09:53:00.000-08:00

HaHA, BLOG AGAIN:)
Anyway, just now, talk to him on the phone.
was asking him to go to temple to do something.
LOLS.Secret:X
ya, was asking him to tell him parents about it.
But he say no.
because his parents will never think a thought for him, always
think so bad point for certain thing that he do.
LOLS, just want him to know, he wont be lonely at all.
Because he still got ME(:
HAHA,
im willing to go through these tough, happy,sadness
time with him.
That is my promise to him.

weibin's parent: Dear uncle and aunty, just hoping you
all will try to think a thought for your son, he is already 17
this year. Try to put his suituation and thinking in your shoes
and think about it. I can feel that something your son is also trying
to have a good time with you all. But he is always afraid that you all wont
understand. That is why he always hide everything all alone,just hoping
you all will try to slowly change the mindset the you all are having or thinking.
And try to have a good time talking to your son,

weibin: well, just give them sometime,i guess they will also slowly
change their mindset, from a bad one to a good one,
no matter how tough the path is.as long you are willing to give me both
of your hand, i wont afraid to walk through the difficult times with you.
THAT IS A PROMISE&A DEAL(:

perhaps knowin someone is really tough

2009-12-05T01:13:00.000-08:00

I'm tired, really tired.
I guess something is going to be over soon,
it's really really very soon.
Seriously, i donknow what is he thinking in his mind?
I really want to KNOW, WHAT IS HE THINKING?
Perhaps is tough, really really tough):
Perhaps the more you want to know the person, is tough.
Thats all.
Sometime, i really hate myself, why must I always avoid him.
Whenever i see him?
Nvm, i won't say any further le.

just friends

2009-12-02T05:32:00.000-08:00

Seriously, i really don know what i want.
Why must i treat him this way?
Why must i always so sensitive all the time?
Why must i always have to miss him, whenever i went to bed?
Why must i have to bothered, jealous because he lose his first kiss?
Why am i always so scared?
Why am i always have no confidence toward myself and him?
Why cant i give him a chance?
WHY WHY WHY!
nonono. just friends.
forever just friends.

finding out the truth

2009-12-01T09:49:00.001-08:00

HAIS. I don know, im so over sensitive.
just now, i text him.
Then after awhile, we quarrel?
think so.
He very angry and pissed off,
Cause about the"someone"
But end up, i tell him that the" someone" is him.
i don know, why i will tell him that.
Sorry, actually the "someone is not him,
its someone else, not my ex either.
Is someone that very very imporant to me.
No one can replaced him, sorry.
so after telling him that,
we are so called, "backtonormal?
lol, then ask him so sensitive,
about losing his first kiss,
he say yes, he did
somemore lip contact,
Then i donknow why im so called jealous?
lol, why must i be jealous?
i hate it. okay,
but seriously, i guess i really like him fully?
ohgosh, but is okay, i will control my feeling toward
him,
And treat him as a FRIEND.
i will really treat him as a friend.
trust me, i will really do that.I have
to stop liking him, and move on my life
and really,no joke
that "someone"is 100%not him
sorry, that i lied to him earlier on

A reply

2009-12-01T06:00:00.000-08:00

Lols~~ that time u drunk i stare u is i angry~~ haha~~ but nvm le...just wondering why u drink nia...btw i HATE girls to drink..thats all~~

2dae work from 5 to 9...then b4 work clement come my house slack cos he nvr work 2dae...ask me go play badminton somemore lols... I very tired so rejected...lols... then i just go work lor...Dam worried when u nvr reply btw haha =]

2009-12-01T03:01:00.000-08:00

HAHA(: you got comment arh?
Sat what, this is specially for me.
lol, but seriously quite sweet(:
heehee, but thanks arh.
don know you got eat the lovely chocolate,
that i bought for you.
That chocolate cost me around 15plus hor
so must eat okay(:
anyway, someone say, when im drunk that time,
you kept on staring at me sia. diao
i don know(:
But seriously, i really have lot of fun with all of you
Hope can get to see you all again.

PS:i don know why, you kept on staring at me?
i really want to know. although we didnt talk much.
but seriously, i really enjoy myself alot.whenever im with you,
and with them as well.
THANKS YOU(:
HEEHEE(:

Rest day

2009-11-30T09:14:00.000-08:00

2dae rest day hahas~~ but was like go meet friends..and angela? Thks for covering ur face wif ur bag all along like for an hour or an hour plus liddat -.- then slack at there...talk talk talk~~was not really able to talk to angela cos i think she crazy~~ lols~~worse then when i 1st time meet carlyn..then play poker there...lost $10 lols~~ its a lame lost -.- Nvm...lols... The girls go drunk...Was like wtf...Drink because sad or because for fun...Carlyn i can understand but not for angela lei..drink for wat seriously...Making things complicated or? If u say just want to drink then choose time and place~~ Just be aware that the senario just now is not suitable to do all the stuffs~~ Next time better dont drink liao...Let me see it and i will just break ur bottle~~ That is a vow from me~~ especially on Angela~~ So u take note ah...
If event then Nvm la~~ Lols..

1.20am liao... u say u 11.30pm online~~ i waited for abt 2 hrs le xia0 jie...i go sleep liao Zzz~~ hp also nvr reply... dk wat happen lols...

Fun with them(:

2009-11-30T04:20:00.000-08:00

HAHA, HAPPYFACE IS here to post again.
Teeheehee(: Today in the morning, my brother and i
went to meet carlyn.
So we talke 25 then 113, then saw carlyn.
Then we talk talk talk(: then talk 113.
Quite fun, seriously, haha.
then saw weibin, he take 113.
then thanks to someone hor,
i think she know, im talking about her(:
Then go hougang to to meet sheena, ahkai, amanda come awhile
then go home le.
Sholud her parents , that why
today was quite fun,(: really enjoy alot^^
But somehow quite pissed off with someone.
so lame hor,childlish.
shall not ,mention his stupid name(:
Give him some pride.
go bully my bro la.
asshole! his mouth damn big like toilet bowl.
puke.eeeer.
having fun with sheena, weibin, darren
haah, very fun lor
hope my bro don put it in heart(:
Lamer: do you think it worth to wait for me?
you sure you can wait forever? lol
but i having alot of fun today(:heehee
P'/S: remember to the chocolate in the fridge
okay?
hope you like it(:
heehee

stupid customers

2009-11-29T05:45:00.000-08:00

More and more Ah Neh~~all the customers T.T all deregister 1...so ma fan..buy card @ outside buy cheaper and stuffs~~then got problem dont come M1 shop kp la~~ Lols..got this Malaysia guy,kpkb abt the queue kns~~nvr bring passport then say wat go out where got pple bring passport... if u know u are going to fixed or do hp stuffs,then of cos need la~~ HELLO! U R A FPREIGNER...so dun kp so much hor cb~~i cant scold u but i scold u here..nbpccb~~ piss me off~~ 2dae was like doing admin all day long~~ felt ok but very fan abt personel things and plus kpkb the customer~~But ok la~~ i am building my face skin not only to bullet proof~~ but to a reflective skin~~ Hehe~~shoot me rebounce back xD

Idk..idk..i very tired le~~everyday say de same things~~ asked if u just be friends u say no..and there u keep mentioning abt friends~~ i specially make Mon off just to see you~~time is an arrangement if i can go meet my other friends anot..why must u keep saying to cancel the meetup~~ wats ur intention...wat is ur thinking..Maybe i was wrong too.. i should not have tried..we both should not have tried.. It hurts already.. Maybe i had put too much 'qi wang' already.. Why am i always trusting girls like this? Idk~~May we really have a beginning?

Haze is forming,the troubles that u had covers the future~~ the worries and trust made them up..Removing them will enable us to see each other..why can't it be like this way?

What hurts the most~~~Was being so close. And havin' so much to say~~And watchin' you walk away.

And never knowin~~'What could've been. And not seein' that lovin' you~~~Is what I was tryin' to do

SILLY(:

2009-11-28T08:50:00.000-08:00

i know, how you feel.
im also like you, i also very hurt and sad.
But i have no choice, i cant forget what my stead did
and said to me.
So sometime, when you treat me good.
I will felt very fake, really very fake.
i don know why you like me. lol
that really stunn me out.
what is so good about me?
i don understand,
why cant we just be friends.
why must you like me?
i guess, you will find a better one, which is
1o times or 100 times 1000 times better than me
or even pretty than me.
i guess, i just cant accept you.
im sorry, i believe one day,
you can find a girl which is pretty, better, and her
background is much much better than me?
you wont know?
And ya, and you sure we can be together forever?
Next year, also can?
you are going poly,and perhaps at that time.
you suddenly like a girl, or a girl like you.
then how?lol
we can still remain as friends. just like now?
is better right?
don be silly, (:

M1 RAWKS

2009-11-28T07:30:00.000-08:00

Dk noe why but been loving this job till now..its like i wont get tired or like very sianz liddat hehe...but i really very stressful on some other personel things? Thenwork work work..started to know more staffs working in m1 =] my manager very funny 1 los~~he hor,can say rubbish 1 lols~~and lame stuffs -.- But very friendly and very helpful haha~~ Thx ah =]

Then after work,go eat supper wif 5 other colleuge,the other 3 are promoters actually..1 Nokia 1 Sony and 1 Samsung~~ Very beautiful right? hahaha.. but all promoters older then me T.T Hais~~ go eat yun tun mian~~then talk talk talk... talk abt alot of interesting things yea,then we keep bully de Samsung promoter becos she date a guy 4 yrs younger than her? ahaha~~ but love dont need ages & anything right? Just trust & Love from ur bottom of ur heart then can le...that is the most important part~~

Maybe getting this straight~~i dont care what ur past is like.. i dont care wat bad experiences u had.. I only want u to put trust in me,and that do not ever felt that u r not worth up to some1,the person may not be as good as u think he or she is...he or she maybe as the same as u..u nvr know until u get close to him or her..ready to love that person is to put 100% trust in urself and on that person.. Continue to escape from the fact is not just making urself sad & down alone,the other parties may be even sader and *Downer* than u..u will nvr imagine or know it..u will nvr~~ u will just hurt the person in the dark,and just escaping the fact only by urself~~ not the other parties~~its a very sad and SELFISH thing that u had done..do u know that~~it really really hurts~~All that are said are the truths,sensitive and important things like this will nvr been put as a joke~~ im sure u can feel it too~~ Escaping doesnt make ANY SENSE @ ALL

And so, Im ready to put the 100%..Are you?

A long long post.

2009-11-28T00:57:00.000-08:00

im stunn, that you really like me.
Perhaps i cant accept the fact, maybe you are right when
come to relationship.
i will trying to escape or even change the suject.
i don want to to hide everything from you le,
yes, when the first time i text you, i already like you.
Because you are the one, that make me feel that im always safe, whenever.
and always protest by you.
i never felt that way, whenever im with my ex.
i got alot of ex, but they are not even seriously at all.
They just want, what they want. then dump me.
AT that moment, a few years back.
i always rejected guys, that want to woo me.
Because i know they got motive, and i don believe in
true love.
BUT you are different from them.
you make me feel that, that nothing is improssible.
and you make me feel that, there is a happy ending, in reality,
even in a fairytale story.
But i cant accept you, is not you are ugly, or whatsoever.
i don even have the right, to accept you,
im felt that, im low life person.
but i can really tell you,
i have already fall in love with you.
but i still have to let go of you.
im trying to. perhaps you deserves a better one.
when im typing this post. im actually crying now.
But i have to hang on there, i cant let you know, im actually crying
i guess, on monday, i will have to fake a smile infront of you.
i know, its tough. i cant let you know, my heart is crying.
i love you, i really do.
Goodbyes, im going to be strong,
without you.
im trying(:

Friends(:

2009-11-27T09:29:00.000-08:00

Hais, i hope you understand.
i don like people, who hide thing from me.
i know you got alot of thing to tell me but yet
you chose to hide it in yourself.
i told you le, we are friend
i will always be your HAPPYFACE(:
i really want to know, what you are thinking in your mind.
But you just kept on tell me, er nothing
i don want you to hide anything, or everything,
its nort good. lol
SO,
Please just tell me everthing can?
if you got any burden or problem. you can just tell me.
i will share your burden with you,
and i willing to be your listening ear.
Cause we are friends(:
Friends should help each other(:
right?

2009-11-27T08:52:00.000-08:00

Hahahas~~today morning dam sianz...i hate holidays~~i mean PUBLIC holidays~~ '7 zhao Ba zhao' mum kpkb liao~~ask me get up and stuffs~~ sheck..climb up from my sleep bed sio..then go eat..mum very cute..ask me go bath until can be angry herself 1..then was like throwing tamtrums around..i was forced to go wash up @ 11.30 am cos i got to work @ 1pm. then she say dad ltr buy back lunch will be @ 12.15 pm then i will late..then the best thing was after i bath finish,which was after 5mins, my dad came back home.. funny right? watsed my sleeping hrs Zzz...

Go work le, then saw clement,my neighbours cum colleuge..then work work work..he finish 1hr earlier than me then wait for me..& he ate my servings of food that the manager bought for us all!! DAM..he idiot lols~~eating is his favourite past time afterall lols..but he's still not fat huh? ahaha..after work still go eat kfc..we guys really can eat i guess..haha!

Then reach home..wanted to sleep but hehe,waiting for some1 somehow..lols..and really curious who is that important person somehow ahaha..nobody noe who i am talking except the person him/her self...lols~~wakakas...

having so much to say,but watching you walk away~~ i love this song =D
So beeter cherish everything now ^.^

LOVE (L)

2009-11-25T22:32:00.000-08:00

If i walk, would you runn?
If i stop, woould you come?
If i say you are the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would show me the way?
Tell me what to say, so you don't leave me.

The world is catching up to you,
While you're running away to chase for your dreams.
It's time for us to make move cause we're asking one another
to change.
And maybe i'm not ready.

But i'm tryin' for your LOVE,
i can hide up above,
i will try for your LOVE,
we've been hiding enough.

If i sing a song, would you sing along?
or wait till i'm gone,oh how push and pull.
If i give you my heart, would you just play the part?
or tell me, it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you while you're running away to chase
your dreams?
It's time for us to face the truth cause we're coming down to each other to
change,
And may be i'm not ready.
p/s: Remember its nice to have someone always being there for you(:
Don't lose it,or might never be yours again.
so treasure it(: heehee.
小俤俤，must eat medicine okay?(:

2009-11-24T23:11:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i slept around 4plus.
i donknow why i just couldnt sleep the whole night.
hais, should i accept him a nort?
i really donknow, if i accept him, later i will be the one get hurt.
then, if i don, then everyone ask me to accept him.
i don know what to do):

Anyway, i pray for him.
donknow his sore throat gone le mah.
hope he is better now.

should i give him a chance?
haiS, lol.idonknow):

little thing.

2009-11-24T07:31:00.000-08:00

Hais, felt that everything is started to change.
Friend always be there for me(: at least still them.
i donknow, why me and him started to become stranger.
its seem like the topic is getting lesser and lesser):
Actually, THE IMPORTANT person, is HIM.
JUST that i don dare to tell him. Hais.
why cant i just tell him):
i miss him,really badly
he is sick, having sore throat. GET WELL(:

Dear lord,
i pray that, tomrrow he will feel happy,
because tomorrow is the first day, he is working(:
HAHA, and he is having sore throat.
hope he will get well soon,
hope he will see a doctor, and rest more.
hope he will be happy, everyday,
hope he will be happy, whenever im with him(:
hope he will forget everything in the past, and move on his life now(:

Hope i will trust him.
hope i will be his happyface, whenever he is down.
hope i can make him, laugh everyday.
hope i can be the one, to help him to forget about his sad past.
hope i can spend my free time, with him.
hope i can make him, feel that he is blessed.
hope i can take him away his burden, illness.
hope i can make him happy everyday.

i pray this, in your precious name
amen(:

M1

2009-11-24T06:01:00.000-08:00

Freaking idiotic sia~~todae is just training..no work -.- Sian 1/2 Like lecture the whole day..tommorrow then work for 4 hrs.. Hmm~~excited too haha~~ morning had a very bad stomach ache~~luckily get better when the training starts..The training there got chiou bu lei..noe 1 girl who got in the tprawks too...but she very dao..dun like her attitude sia...kns...

Then 6pm then go..went to farrer park there wif clement...slack all around then go eat kfc..now thx to my hunger just now that i got sore throat.. dam irritated.. 2dae smoke alot..in the fact that i had sore throat all way long..hahas...thats all for 2dae

hope u feel better by now..heard that u quite sick so maybe u r not online..hope u will feel better..its such a consience that i fall sick also haha..

A EMPTY promises

2009-11-23T09:10:00.001-08:00

do you still remember that, i ask you whether are you free on monday?
Because i need tuition? right?
YA, then out of the sudden, my mum say cant.
i don know why, i was damn sad when i heard that. lol
i though they really allowed, BUT end up, cant):
i don know what is wrong with me, started to feel that every thing is just so fake to me?
Perhaps it really fake, hais i donknow,
really hate it, when they give me empty promises.
Really hate it):
forget it.

2009-11-23T07:34:00.000-08:00

Went around every where i can today~~so bored sia~~dk how i end up @ casino there~~*private* one...lols~~also dk how i was able to win $160 with a mere $10 Lolz~~ Happy for a moment yea =] but some things $$ still can't buy~~becos after which,i was still all alone..dammit~~friends i called can't come out -.-! then called my best bro from china,cause he went back..how i wish he was wif me,sharing the happy moments,cos he will pei me go there 1,but he's solid on not to gamble,but he did bet twice only Haha~~

Then after that went to tampines~~i spent like $20 on arcade,as if $$ is free lols..hmm..i still left alot in my wallet haha..then sms her..said dk wat thing that make me feel so embarassed somehow =P 'Xin li hua' i guessed..Then play play play,then go Temasek for dinner..i was looking forward that they brought us dinner but in the end is ownself must go buy our own food...funny right? lols..but overall was fun yep =] we had jokes and game till 10.20pm...then my other friends kent,was like waiting for me to return to treat them eat haha..cos i promised them..but i was too tired somehow so get back home le..

Tommorrow will be my 1st day working @ M1 shop..Excited!! Hehe~~hope everything will be fine =]

When can you put trust on me?

Back from long posting

2009-11-22T07:20:00.000-08:00

Alot things happened..friends gone after O's and new batch arrived~~felt fresher but seriously,missing the old days..but somehow like wat it is now compared to the last time~~

So start off wif my tpRawks!! its fun sia~~(beside seeing chiou bu) Hehe~~ met new friends and stuffs~~learn shuffle woohoo~!! Tommorrow will be having dinner wif them again~~too back leonard cant be joining..hais~~i think now he is being whacked by the monks in china bah? xD

Then the day after 2morrow is my work in M1..this is it =D i am goin to get some experience finally hehe~~On IT =] then tomorrow dk can meet up wif some mysterious gal?? lols~~

Memories too much,sad past too much..i had buried all of them out of my mind..Start to be afraid..but when the time comes,i will treasure,even if im the 1 being hurt again -.-

2dae

2009-09-14T07:46:00.001-07:00

Freaking prelim results were out today and so far i passed english only~~hmm~~ how ah? Sianz~~ stop slacking around? I think i said it to myself a hundred times liao lols~~ i better get my determination back or i really going to die flat on the upcoming 0's level examination~~

For today everythings fine.. then rafi gave hp no. 0.0! WE r SNATCHING lols... nvm abt it..no sms recieved till now =.= sua~~ as wat gary says, gals are **** in the ***. So concentrate in studies 1st better...I am dam broke now..hahas..headace again so gonna sleep early...today nvr study still.

Sometimes how i wish i got 1 rm,bed wif study rm 2gether..so i wont get lazy and stay in bedroom and not study lols~~my bed the best ><

Blog is not totally up yet so,yea,hold on b4 facilities r up ah thks